All of those nights when I was so lonely and cried wondering what was wrong with me that I couldn't find a husband. All those months when the test was negative again and I wondered if I would ever be a mother. All those days when I thought God was punishing me or maybe He had forgotten me..............
There was nothing extraordinary about today. I didn't win any awards. I didn't earn a large amount of money. I didn't run 15 miles. But my baby wore a new dress that I thought was adorable.
We didn't go on vacation or lay on a beach today......but we played with cute boys at play group like Caleb and his momma Robin.
We didn't eat at a fancy restaurant.....but we had tacos and cupcakes at our friend Jessica's house and watched kids like John Michael and Neely get chocolate all over their faces as they devoured their cupcakes. That beats cavier anyday!
We don't have a perfect clean house or a manicured lawn to come home to.....but we saw little Kade smile for the first time today!
And we got to go to the camp I grew up going to and saw Harper's grandparents who are crazy about her. (I asked them if they were on their way to an Auburn football game. ha!)
We didn't go to Disneyworld or the Circus but we saw some of my parent's church kids playing volleyball.
We didn't go shopping at the Galleria.....but we got a coke from the Snack Shack where mommy spent many, many hours working every summer during college at camp.
Yes, it wasn't an extraordinary day. But it was a wonderful, wonderful day full of friends and family and a baby I love more than life. And every sad moment I ever had in my life, every minute I thought God wasn't hearing my prayers......He was. And His answer has been better than my wildest dream. Sometimes I worry I'm going to wake up and have to give this life back because it's better than I deserve.
P.S. I thought you might like to see a video we made tonight of Harper eating. First I'm feeding her avacados and applesauce. She does not like it. So we go back to just applesauce. She cracks us up because she always takes a bite and then looks to see if her daddy is looking and then flashes a HUGE smile. I could eat her up with a spoon. (I didn't put a bib on her because I was about to get her ready for bed and I had to wash her outfit anyway so why dirty a bib too??? ha!)