We had a very busy day today. This is a collage of pictures of all the people who came to visit us today. We spent another day being completely overwhelmed by the kindness and generosity of both our friends and church members and loved ones and some of you bloggers who have come by to see me. Scott and I spent a long time talking tonight about how the last three days have completely changed our life. Not just because we have had to go through a trial but through it - God has shown us the importance of giving and compassion.
We have been blessed a million times over by the outpouring of love and e-mails and gifts and visits and phone calls and prayers from so many people. But at the same time - Harper is in the NICU with 40 other babies and we see so many families so much less fortunate than us - most of them with no visitors and probably a good portion of those babies have no one to pray over them. We know that we have had over 100,000 visitors to this blog a DAY and people who have their churches, Bible Studies, etc praying for us. Things that just blow our mind. We can't get over the stories we hear of all the people who are praying for our little baby. And we believe with everything in us that she WILL be healed. Because we know that God has the opportunity to show His power and love in that healing. And to NOT answer would be to have the chance to have people lose faith in the power of prayer.
But we want to ask you two things - please pray for all babies who are in NICU's right now and for their families. It's a hard and scary place and the majority of parents probably don't have the hope and faith that we do. Also - we have learned how much it can mean to people just to love on them - give to them, call them, visit them - when they are in a crisis. Scott and I have a huge burden to pay it forward to others when we get Harper home. If Harper being sick makes us love and appreciate others and to spend our life looking for ways to help others - then we are thankful for that and we hope we can encourage you to do the same. You never know when it will be your turn to be on the recieving end. It's extremely humbling.
Update on my girl:
We were able to meet with Harper's doctor today for the first time since she has been there. It was a very good meeting. He gave us a lot of details. It was very difficult for me to sit and listen to him talk about how sick my little baby is. Our families felt it was very positive but it was just scary for me. Basically it is a long and gradual process. They believe she got an infection which has caused the problems with her lungs. They think her heart and brain are both good. Very, very slowly - they are trying to get her off the oxygen that is supporting her lungs. They think ECMO is a final resort. We will most likely be here for weeks. Her numbers seem to improve little by little and we do have a lot of hope. She is critical but stable.
A lot of you ask how I am doing. It's hard. I'm very swollen and in a lot of pain but it's getting better every day. I have a hard time doing the things I should like resting, eating, Pumping on a schedule - because I'm so focused on everything else. I'm trying hard to slow down and focus on what I need to get well so I can be the best mom for Harper I can be.
We love each of you who visit this blog DEARLY!