So I struggle all the time with why so many people read my blog. I'm such an ordinary girl with a very ordinary (but blessed) life. And then I think I know who my main audience is - Christian mothers in their 20's and 30's. And I keep learning that that is totally not true. There are many who read my blog who aren't Christians or are from other faiths. I know there are a lot of women who struggle with infertility who read my blog. But I'm pretty blown away by all the college aged girls and teenagers who read my blog - can't believe you want to read about an old woman in Arkansas. And obviously the number of singles who read my blog. I also know there are a lot of women older than me who read my blog with maybe teenagers or like my mom who likes to read blogs of younger women to remember the sweet time in her life when she had young children. And maybe I have other readers who don't fit any of those descriptions - what an amazing world this blog world is.
I know I talk about infertility a lot because that was my most recent struggle (besides the NICU stay). BUT your comments yesterday brought back a flood of emotions to me as I remember so greatly the pain of wanting to get married. I cried many times as I read your comments because I just hurt for you. I remember the feeling of wondering "what is wrong with me?" and "if I was just thinner, or prettier, or smarter, or funnier"......... I have a HUGE, HUGE burden for single girls. I really do know how it is hard to find your place in church. I'm thankful that Churches are family based and family focused. But sometimes it can make you feel very unwanted when you are sitting alone in the pew. I know that churches don't mean to do it just as married couples don't mean to leave their single friends out. But it can sure feel that way. I used to hate company picnics and Christmas parties because everyone brought their spouse and/or kids and there was loser me - hanging out by myself.
If you read the comments - you know you are NOT alone. And I realize more and more every day how many out there are hurting. Whether you are longing for a husband or a child, or you've lost a child or spouse, or you have a serious illness, or you've lost a parent, or you are suffering due to the recession (and that is SUCH an issue right now - so many are having a hard time).......there probably isn't anyone out there who is not hurting. And if you aren't.......just hold on ......your time will come.
Today I just feel led to list some verses of encouragement and hope. I would love for you to leave in the comments some words of hope or encouragement for each other. I think we all could use it.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. - Deuteronomy 31:6
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. – Matthew 11:28-30
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. - Philippians 3:13-14
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. – Philippians 4:6
"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going." – John 14:1-4
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. – Galatians 6:9
Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. – Psalm 42:5-6a