Tis So Sweet To Trust in Jesus

Two years ago we started trying to start a family. We got pregnant very easily and then miscarried just as quickly. So we kept trying but nothing happened. After a year – we sought medical help and I started on fertility drugs and tried a few different procedures. Because of my age – we moved things along quickly.


In March – we met with a fertility specialist from Little Rock and we were told that our only hope was to do in vitro and even then our chances were 50/50 and it really didn’t paint that rosy of a picture for us. I left that appointment feeling lower than I have ever been. I was devastated. I remember calling my mom and crying and just saying over and over “I just don’t know what to do”.


So we decided to take a break. The past year had been a horrible roller coaster of emotions and I just needed a rest. So we planned a dream vacation in Hawaii and I knew after some R&R and the beach – either we would get pregnant or I would have clarity of what to do next. I didn’t have a peace about in vitro and I didn’t have a peace about adoption. But I also knew that I would never feel complete without children.


So in April – not only did we take a break from focusing on trying but I took a break from TV and the internet. I needed to take all of my time and spend it with Scott and with Jesus. I needed it to be quiet so I could hear Him speak. At the time we were doing “Experiencing God” in our Sunday School classes and our chapter that week was on FAITH. I also had been praying for God to give me a book of the Bible to focus on that week and He kept saying “Hebrews”. And in Hebrews – there is a chapter that speaks of all the men in the Bible who had great faith and because of their faith – God did amazing things. During this time – I started to feel this peace and joy come over me that I could not explain except to know that God was holding my hand and whispering “Wait on me – have faith that I can do anything”.

Three days before we left for Hawaii – I took a test.

God is able to do immeasurably more than all we can ask or imagine. Eph 3:20

I can’t even begin to tell you how shocked we were. But I know how big my God is. I also know how many of you have prayed for us for so long and I will never begin to be able to show you my gratitude.
I have prayed for the past few months that when I got pregnant – that God would get all the glory – and He did it in such a way that only HE and HE alone can be the reason.

I almost hate to share this news because I know there are so many of you who will read this and be happy for me but your heart will hurt because you are still waiting for your turn. I pray that I will give you some hope. I hope you know that there are so many of you that I am praying for daily by name and I pray for all others to cover any I don’t know of. I hope that all of you who are moms will commit yourself to pray for those who aren’t and are having trouble. It’s one of the worst pains in the world to not be able to get pregnant. It’s a grief that few will understand. I know that my infertility wasn’t near as long as some of you have waited – know that I still have faith that God WILL do a work in you also. Please don’t give up hope.

Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this. Psalms 37: 3-5
I am almost 11 weeks and due on January 13th . We are overjoyed at God’s blessings. I have been very tired and very sick but just like I said when I wrote my post about Mother’s Day – even in my sickness – I thank Him. I am so thankful that God is entrusting us with a child.

We had one ultrasound at 6 weeks because my levels were so high my doctor thought I might be having TWINS! (there is just one!) My doctor and nurse (both are girls my age and I ADORE them) hugged both of us and cried as we saw the ultrasound. It was one of the best moments of my life.

We had planned to wait until after this Friday to tell everyone because that is when we will hear the heartbeat – but people were starting to ask questions and we just couldn’t keep it in any longer. Also – if you don’t mind – I would covet your prayers for us on Friday that everything would be okay. I feel deep in my soul that it will be.

Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, "So shall your offspring be." Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead--since he was about a hundred years old--and that Sarah's womb was also dead. Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. Romans 4: 18 – 22
I’m thankful that our God still does miracles! I’m thankful He hears and answers our prayers. He doesn’t need medicine or doctors or for the economy to change to answer our prayers. He created the universe – can’t we believe that anything is possible with Him? All He needs is for us to put our complete trust in Him.

Jesus, Jesus, How I Trust HIM
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er
Jesus, Jesus, PRECIOUS Jesus

O FOR GRACE TO TRUST HIM MORE!

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