I spent this morning auditioning Easter outfits for Harper. Since we have decided to take her out on Easter Sunday.......I want her to look extra cute. I have about 3 options - this is not the winner but I thought she looked cute. I got this dress and sweater at where else - Wal-Mart. I saw them on a weekly grocery trip and almost bought it twice but finally last week they were both on sale and I caved. Most of Harper's 0-3 month outfits are onesies and she doesn't have much that is dressy so I just couldn't help it. I'm a sucker for a cute cardigan and a spring dress.
I spent last night and most of today just loving on my girl and thanking God for the blessing that she is. I have been SOOO overwhelmed with sadness for all the women out there longing for a child. I hear from so many of you daily and I know EXACTLY how you feel. This time last year I was just at my lowest point. I know how desperate and hopeless you feel. I want to take it from you and give you a precious child. But God knows the plan He has for you. I have been broken over all the sick children. I am sent so many prayer requests daily and it's my privilege to pray for each of them but it's also so hard to see so much pain. I have prayed in the middle of the night for God to save little Stellan. My heart hurts for Angie this week as she is nearing the anniversary of Audrey's birth and death.
I know there are many of you who read this blog and you have a strong faith. You know that we can't understand everything that happens but we know who our Father is and that He loves us and promises to never leave or forsake us. I know some of you are new Christians and you are probably struggling with answers. Some of you don't have a relationship with Jesus and you wonder if God even hears prayers.
What I know is in John 16:33 - God says "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart - I have overcome the world!" He knew your name before you were born. He knew the choices you would make and the plans He had for you. He knew if you would follow Him or reject Him. I don't think we can ever understand His ways - but I don't want to follow a God who I can understand. I want a God who created the earth, who sacrificed HIS SON out of love for us, who loves us more than we could ever fathom, a God who SINGS over us! I trust Him no matter what life may bring.
I love this song right now - Chris Tomlin's "I will rise". I watched a video today where he said that Louie Giglio ( who I love) challenged him to write a song that would encourage those who were facing tough times or possibly death. He wanted him to write a song that could be sung at a funeral. I hope you can listen and have hope. And if you have healthy children - hug them a little tighter today and pray for those who don't.