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Harper and I have had a kind of out of sorts day. I can't put my finger on it but I've been kind of blue and she has been kind of grumpy. And don't get me started on the fact that I took a grumpy, fussy baby to Wal-Mart and after they had scanned all my items the computer broke and I had to stand there for 20 minutes while they tried to figure it out and ended up moving me to a different line to rescan all my items. AWWWWW....Patience is a Virtue.
Anyway - I put Harper in these new pajamas tonight that my Aunt Linda bought her and they were so cute I had to take her picture and I even had to try putting a little bow in her hair (gasp - not a HUGE bow - just a little one!) She was so precious and I was just thinking about all the things about motherhood that have been easier than I thought and all the things that have been harder and I thought I would make a little list.
THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN EASIER THAN I IMAGINED
- Childbirth itself (thanks to my best friend the epidural) (I would NOT say this if I had done it natural! ha!)
- Breastfeeding (I have always dreaded this and thought I would hate it)
- The lack of sleep (no she still doesn't sleep through the night - but I honestly don't mind and won't complain - I think I have just gotten used to it. It will work itself out when she is good and ready!)
- Changing diapers
- Just taking care of a baby in general - I was scared silly of that
- Going to Wal-Mart/Target/any store with a baby
- Adjusting to being at home - I was worried I might get bored. ha ha ha ha ha ha - oh that makes me laugh.
- Losing the baby weight
- Taking trips with her - flying or driving
- Dawson and Harper getting along - so far it's gone WAY better than I dreamed
THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN HARDER THAN I IMAGINED
- Protecting her from germs - I was never a germ-a-phobe until she was born and now I think about it constantly - it will only get worse this winter.
- The recovery from birthing a 10 pound baby - I didn't feel "normal" for about 3 months - that was tougher than the pregnancy or delivery and the thing I dread the most about #2 (her NICU stay had a lot to do with that - at least I hope that was it)
- Leaving her .....EVER. I thought I would be back to normal right away .....going to choir, doing this and that.........but I hate leaving her.
- Ever looking half way decent - I am always covered in spit up, drool, squash and I'm sweaty and a hot mess. But what's easier than I imagined - I really don't care about that!
- Making play dates. I figured I would hang out with Laurie all the time or other friends but most of the time - I just enjoy being at home with her by myself. This isn't hard - just different than I imagined.
- Not being able to serve like I have before. Serving is my spiritual gift and having a baby - I just can't serve as much as before and that has been strangely hard for me but it's okay. I tell myself every day that right now Harper is my mission field and I will serve her for this season in my life.
- Dressing Harper up cute and getting her to stay that way for more than 5 minutes before she starts spitting up or drooling on her outfit or tugging her bow off. I've learned to take her picture the minute I get her dressed or the cuteness is over. ha!
- Keeping a clean house and putting dinner on the table every night. I thought our house would just sparkle because I would clean all the time. Either I don't have the time or I'm too tired.